We all have left the past behind us, some glorious moments and some shadows of them. Once in a while, we sit back and hit the play button in our mind to visit those old places. Life is made up of many losses and experiences gained. Day by day, when we grow older this void becomes deeper; sometimes I ask myself how far back I can remember from my life. We all live many lives within one life; we are the same old moon in the sky but with a different face every night.
When I was in school, I had a journal which had a line on the back, “Three things never come back in life – Childhood, Youth, and Parents.” Well at that point since I was a child, I had a reservoir of them all, so I did not understand the depth of that quote which is true. Moments are not reversible; there are no phenomena like that. Maybe that is why we miss our childhood the most, because when you are child days and nights appear longer, the sun and the moon look big, our small world feels large, our few years old life is a lifetime for us. Then we start to pretend wiser and astute; then we learn the exact dimensions of sun and moon, accurate calculations of day and night and an average median of human life. Now, will you call it an achievement or a tragedy?
Pretended cleverness is a disease, knowing it all is the end of curiosities.
Your free will is a slave of your watch. There are many places you need to be, but there is nowhere to reach. There are many people you need to see but no one to meet. And there are many contacts in your phone but no one to talk. There are many masks in your closet but no face to please.
Pause for the moment, think about it. Look at the dreary monotony of your life. How come when you were a child, you had time for everything including your school, play, friends, homework, TV and all the silly things you wanted to explore. Who is stealing your time now? Is it work or is it lack of conviction or is it anxiety-ridden mind? If you want to live your childhood again, you need to break the glass of your old beliefs and shatter the prejudices. You can live your childhood every day if you allow yourself to be curious, generous and stress-free. A little wisdom and a little foolishness is a recipe to keep your inner child alive. Be present and look at this world with fresh eyes every day.
Love and Sunshine. Keep Feeling Buddhaful.